Dream Date

It seems a couple of months have passed since I last wrote. I’ve missed it. During this time, nothing has changed. I mean, I’m still single and a virgin. Sex is not a concern of mine, because it’s my desire to wait for marriage and share it for the first time on our wedding night. What concerns me is my singleness! I want a girlfriend. Though sex is out of my sights until we become husband and wife, I still want to have a romantic relationship. I definitely have the urge to have sex. But, with God’s help and blessing, I can wait!

Why do I think this? Good question. Let’s go back into the past on a particular Monday. I’m attending my regular sociology lecture and our professor tells us to discuss the topic of sex. Whatever motivation she has, it opens my mind and thoughts about sex. In our class, nobody willingly participates in this discussion. Well, I can’t make myself either!

This is how I grew up, where young people are afraid to discuss sex. I’m one of them. Too shy to talk about it openly, and afraid of what others will think of me. More than that, I am afraid to tell people what I feel openly about my views on sex. But it initiates some basic ideas in my mind. I decided to write them down here, as this seems like the right platform for it.

So, my professor says that nowadays, if people engage in sex at a very young age, let it be. This makes me wonder about myself. I’ve never even kissed a girl, let alone had sex! To be honest, sometimes it feels bad. Not a single kiss from any girl. But that’s just part of who I am. I’m trying to be faithful to my future girl as much as I possibly can. Doesn’t it sound beautiful? I think it’s fine to wait for someone special with whom you can share everything, even as simple a thing as a kiss or hug! It’s fine to wait for your girl. It’s not just about sex. Rather, it’s about love, care, respect, trust—so many things to experience with that one special girl. Yeah, It sounds great to me!

Regardless of how the world views sex, I’ve decided to consummate our vows with each other after our wedding. I want to give my virginity to my wife. That’s what matters to me. All the rest is just an unwanted distraction.

As for her virginity, well, I can at least hope for it. It’s a hard thing to answer. I personally feel that since I’m a virgin I’d also prefer my girl to be one, too. But that’s just my preference. It may be that God decides otherwise. And I want what He says is best for me—and her! Let it be as He wills.

This is for all of us who have waited and keep waiting. Doesn’t it feel awesome to wait for someone we wish for, dreaming of how it will feel to consume each other on our wedding night? It’s worth the wait. Our loved one deserves to be loved in this way as well.

Even though I’ve not experienced a single kiss nor a hug from any girl, what else can I do? Wait! Be patient. Yes, I can do this. It’s terribly hard to wait for that first kiss and tight hug from my loved one. But this pain can’t measure up to the pleasure her arms will bring me. It’s nothing compared to her tight hugs and lots of long, deep, passionate kisses.

Do I need to mention that in her arms, I’ll forget about my pain and all this waiting? I don’t think I’ll even care about sex at first! We’ll be together and have the rest of our lives for that! I’ve waited so long for her. I’ll want to enjoy each and every moment that I spend with her because it’s the basis of a long-lasting relationship. We’ll work together to build a strong relationship with high moral values. After all I’ve experienced this year, I know and realize my need for love. I realize how important it is to receive love from our dear one! It feels great.

Sometimes we need to learn our lesson and change ourselves. If God wants me to wait, then fine. I will wait until the right girl comes in my life. Or better said, until I become part of her life. I’m sure she is such a fine woman that everybody wants her. But I bet God wants to be sure that, when I meet her, I’ll have become the man she waits for and dreams of! I’ll be the lucky guy who ends up with this dream girl.

To be honest, it bothers me that I don’t have a girlfriend while others do. Sometimes I think I am just a failure who can’t manage to even be friends with his crushes. I don’t understand why each time I scold myself. I know It’s okay to let things happen at their own pace. I can’t build friendships with my crushes because of the pattern of my behavior. But I won’t forget that I’ve made it this far. Those very patterns have brought me some achievements which are higher priorities than the desire for love, crushes, etc. I admit I’ve made my mistakes, but this is something that can’t be undone now because time has passed. So be it!

Why do I need to compare myself with others? If they have sex at a young age, having girlfriends, enjoying quality time and behaving like a couple, what’s that to me? Does God compare me with other people? No, never! I need to trust him. My time will come, and then I’ll have all the things I dream of. There will be many tight hugs, long kisses, and hot nights of sex with the right girl.

I can not go into the past and correct my mistakes, but that’s fine. Whatever crush I have, I can’t be with them! I wonder, do I really even know the meaning of love? I’ve never been loved by any girl nor have dated anyone. So why do I need to do things just because someone else does them? I am different, my requirements are different. I want to feel loved by my girl.

“Wait,” you say, “my girl?” I always think that whatever girl comes in my life, I want her as my wife. It’s just what I feel. I never have a chance to open up to her, though. It’s just what I feel, my thoughts. I never validate them or make their existence known in the real world.

Maybe, as time passes, I’ll get my answer. At this stage, sex is not a priority for me. I just want to feel loved by a special someone. We (my love and I don’t know where she is) haven’t met yet. But who knows? Maybe her secret prayers help me in my life even now, though I am not able to see it or realize it. Sometimes I imagine it.

Girl, I also want to be a part of your life, as well. First, I need to work on myself, then I can rest in your arms. I long for that day to come.

It’s midnight here now. I feel so empty and relaxed. You know what? My heart feels so light now, and I am happy! There are so many things apart from sex we can do. I understand what loving someone means. It’s not just about sex.

After all this confession, I just want to hug you tight! I expect that, while hugging, I’ll love the feeling of your breasts against me and want to explore them more and more. But right now what I need is to sleep with you, cuddle you.

The next morning, I wake up in your arms. Last night I slept blissfully. My racing heart is calm now. I take a deep breath and let things go naturally. I look at you beside me, still in your sleep. I don’t want to wake you up now. I kiss your forehead and leave the bed. It’s a working day so I must hurry or I shall be late. Also, I don’t want to surprise you, so I write a note and put it near your bed. After waking, you can read it.

It’s a small note describing your importance and how you fulfill my life! I feel so loved and romantic. Looking forward to this evening, be ready!

What is my plan for this evening? Nothing special, as simple as possible. What makes it beautiful is your presence! So be ready when we meet in the evening.

I eagerly wait for this evening. After completion of all my work, I go home and relax a bit. Then I get ready for our date and, at 7 pm sharp, I go to pick her up.

She looks so pretty and beautiful in that outfit. I compliment her and hug her. Then we share one passionate kiss! We drive to the local restaurant, which is quite popular and well known. I already booked a table for two, so we don’t need to wait!

Slow music is playing there, it feels great, I ask her to order whatever she likes. I am just Interested in some quality time with her. Other things do not matter to me. it’s not like I am shy or something. I just want to gaze into her eyes and forget myself! Still, I make a move. I give her one red rose and confess my love again. She is my woman and I love to be with her, enjoying her company!

The meal has arrived, it’s lovely. My nervousness has gone now and I am enjoying myself as well. The surroundings feel great as well. I order some drinks. I don’t know why, but I want to have a drink with her. Suddenly, one of my favorite songs starts playing. I hold her hands, she smiles, and my heartbeat increases. It allows me to forget all my worries and insecurities.

After dinner, I ask her for a dance and she gladly agrees… It feels awesome. I hold her tight and kiss her again. After that, we decide to go to the car. We both enjoyed the evening; it felt great. It’s already late now and I also want to drop her at her home. This time I ask her to drive. During this time we talk about each other.

I feel an erection happening and she notices… well, it’s quite obvious. She doesn’t say a word, neither do I. We look into each other’s eyes and smile. Then we arrive at her home. This time she hugs me tight and kisses me passionately.

I know she can feel my erection, and I can feel her boobs pressing against my chest. I don’t have time to react. She whispers in my ear, “Don’t you dare cum after going home! You are not allowed to masturbate without my permission!”

What is this? I thought I could release my sexual tension once I reach my home. But now I can not disobey her! I know. Something big comes into her mind… maybe she wants to instruct me when I can masturbate and send me one of her Favorite MH stories where a woman tries to pleasure her man. Or maybe she just wants to tease me?

Well, after regaining my focus, I hold tight. I can feel her breathing…our hearts beat fast..we can listen to it. I tell her how much I Iove her. I admire the way she is! Her body, her soul, her beauty all belong to me!

I am fully satisfied with the way this evening ended with my loved one. I don’t want to have sex with her yet. As I said earlier, we have the rest of our lives for it. For now, I have more important priorities than sex, and she agrees. We spend quality time today, and we share a goodbye kiss and promise each other to wait until our marriage!

By the way, I also have the excitement of wondering why she stops me from masturbating today? With this question in my mind, I went to my home and sleep in peace. I am dreaming about this evening that we spent together.

May God bless all of us and keep that fire burning for each other…