What a Relief
Dear MH readers, last weekend, it was finally time to create an account on this great website. I wanted to write this for a long time to you. First of all my compliments to the MH-team, for such a great and positive approach to Christian sexuality and masturbation. But also a great thanks to the contributors here. I have been on this site for a few years, visiting every now and then—but the last few months way more.
First some honest information about myself. I am a 50-year-old single male. Brought up in a strict but loving Christian family. From a young age, I went to Sunday church services morning and evening. Throughout the week, we had our church school and I sang in the choir from a quite young age. On first sight, I was a happy example of a Christian.
At the young age of 7, I already had started touching my genitals not knowing it was called masturbation. Lying on my stomach, I made a sort of cup with my hands and put that over my genitals and rubbed it against the mattress. As the years progressed and puberty hit me, I became a very uncertain person, especially when I started having sexual feelings and started to explore masturbation. Wow, that felt so good under the blankets. Having an erection was heaven and having such sensitive balls was a great feeling. So at that moment, I enjoyed it. Although I was brought up with the same values as here, that sexuality belongs within a marriage between a man and woman, no one gave me that talk about masturbation or any other sexual education. Later on, there was that fear of God. As said here earlier, there was a great stigma in religion on sexuality/masturbation. It went on so badly, that the feelings of shame and guilt came to stand between me and God. What should have been such a great and God-given feeling now turned into something dirty. After a while, I went to church only once a week; a while later, I didn’t go at all anymore. Focusing on my career (I thought) was way better. As the years went by, I had a masturbation session every now and then, and with the help of some graphic images, I did ejaculate. But wasn’t what I would call an orgasm. Throughout the years, I have had only two good-feeling orgasms.
Finally, I started to miss a lot of things, most of all my relationship with God. But how to reconnect to Him? I felt a bit like the lost son. But what about my sexual feelings? These feelings are not gone when you wanna go to church again. A few years ago, I started to take steps. First by living a healthier life: I quit smoking and started going to the gym. In the meantime, a lot has happened. And yeah, a while ago, I started going to the church services, thanks to some people here in my direct surroundings. But most of all I have to thank the people on MH, the men and women who contributed here about a positive way to enjoy sexuality and masturbation and still have their faith in the Almighty God. Even at the age of 50, there is still a lot to learn. I don’t know God’s plan with me when it comes to a relationship with a woman. It might be I have to stay single. But I know now that there is still a lot to enjoy when it comes to guilt and shame-free masturbation!
I do realize this MH website is about human sexuality between a man and a woman. I really do appreciate that there is this place and space here for single men and women. If there are any comments or questions, just let me know.
Kind regards.
Welcome! Congrats on your first post. MH is a wonderful site. I love it! I would love to hear more about your masturbation practices. Please write more! Later…
Welcome! I love getting the perspectives of singles on this site. And so happy that you shed all the bad stigma of guilt and shame around mnasturbatuon. It is natural and a gift to enjoy stroking your cock and having wonderful cum sessions. And the writers here at MH can help those sessions as you bask in the beauty of hot monogamy. And if you get really adventurous, write up one of your fictional stories of the monogamy in your fantasies. You might get hundreds of other horny adults cumming along with you!
Thanks for the congrats and warm welcome Alicia and Pacman. Good to hear that you both love this website. I will try and see what I can think of writing a masturbation story. I am glad too that I shed off that guilt and now can enjoy some nice masturbation sessions. God gave sexuality as something to enjoy for husbands and wives. Masturbation was of course created for couples too, but for singles, it is a great way to relieve stress and more important something to enjoy and celebrate!
Welcome to MH. As you already likely know the beliefs here vary greatly. I look forward to you sharing your experiences and beliefs. Such as what your parents taught you about sex and any sexual experiences with other people. I can’t imagine living to 50 without having experienced a man being inside me. So I would guess never being inside a woman must be a burden.
Welcome! I am so happy you are able to shed that unnecessary guilt and shame. Our sexuality truly is a gift from God that should be celebrated within the confines we are given. Just enjoy being a man and celebrate your masculinity. Lord willing, you will find a wonderful wife to enjoy some hot sex with. In the meantime, enjoy stroking!
Nice Story. I love to relieve myself with masturbation.
I am glad you are willing to post here and tell about yourself. I empathize with your guilt feelings about masturbation.
For various reasons I became very addicted to masturbation for a number of years from when I was about 12, and as well as my feelings of guilt, I was worried that I had made myself sterile. (Because I was doing it so often, I stopped producing any sperm.) I was also told that I would become a weakling and be impotent if I married.
I was jealous of the boys a school who spurted semen, and for a long time, I found it impossible to do it less often.
Peterman, I’m a 63 year old widower, and a lover of Christ and all He has done for us. My late wife and I had a wonderful sex life until she contracted a skin disease that made intercourse impossible. So we masturbated together, or alone, it didn’t matter. She would mentally create a fictional couple and imagine them having sex, while I concentrated on thoughts of her and the wonderful past we shared together.
She’s been gone nearly 8 years now, and I still masturbate once in a while. MH has been a wonderful source of mental content for my stimulation. She and I had such a great sexual relationship that there are few of the stories on MH that we hadn’t done except anal; neither of us were interested in exploring that. But I love to put my wife and myself into the main character roles that are retold here.
I see nothing wrong with masturbation as long as I don’t lust after another woman in my friendship circle or use pornography. That last one is very difficult because I was in the Air Force for 26 years, and I became addicted to all of the porn that was prevalent in my career field. But I digress.
I’m happy you’ve returned to the Christian Faith, and that you find yourself comfortable with using a gift that God gave us, our ability to experience the joys of sex, even via masturbation.
My wife was the only sex partner I’ve ever had, but I cannot even imagine any woman giving better blow blowjobs than she gave; she was a master at it. So I think of that quite often.
Hi Sarge, sorry to hear the loss of your wife. I have read a few of your comments on various posts.
I wanted to say that masturbating is a wonderful way to honour the memory of your wife and the loving relationship you clearly had with her.
It is said that an Orgasm is a image of the Ecstasy we will have when we stand before God. That is one of the reasons He gave it to us in marriage, and masturbation. I don't think people masturbate in heaven as I think the vision of God exceeds what masturbation can bring. But Jesus did say at the resurrection we are like angles, so maybe rather than supplanted, it is instead bettered. Anyway, I pray that the grace of God sometimes allows your wife a vision of you honouring her and your marriage with her by your masturbation. Keep it up – pun intended.
@Secondmarge Thanks for your thoughts. I know that beliefs vary greatly on MH and so do lives. Not every life is like growing up, hitting a great period in life called puberty. Learn how to masturbate, go out on dates. Get married have wonderful lovemaking sessions have kids etc.
As my life progressed from a young age on, I wanted a relationship with a woman. Do great things together and raise a family. But my path went a different way. I struggled with my study and finding a nice job. At last, I got a good job. But had to travel a lot. That went on for a long time (years).
In the meantime, I did of course look for a woman. But as you know, they are not for sale. I did have a few short relations and with one, I did have sexual contact. For reasons, it didn’t turn out well. And a lot more happened in my life.
Looking back now, there were a lot of tough times. Life didn’t treat me the way I wanted. Life is also about making choices, believe me, I did make a lot of bad choices, but hey we are all humans.
Am I sad about all this? No, not at all. There were also great times with fun and laughter. Good friendships, doing great things together.
You ended, and I quote, ‘So I would guess never being inside a woman must be a burden’. To be honest yes it is a burden. I hoped to have more nice experiences, as you have had and others here on MH. Again my path went a different way.
I doubted for a long time to post on MH. I know that a lot of people read the stories on MH without registering or posting. There are singles or people in relationships with feelings of shame and guilt around sexuality. For those, I wanted to post my story, and if I only can help one person with it, my mission has succeeded. Thanks again for your reaction, I do respect your thoughts!
I also want to thank Texasman, King Arthur JVC, and Sarge for posting on my story. As said earlier we all have our struggles in life. Whether its with porn, feelings of guilt, impotence, or disturbing thoughts. It is good that websites like MH do exist. So we can read and learn from each other and most importantly that we are not alone in this.
Thanks for your thoughtful and honest response. We live and learn. I am someone that has become much different than I was in my youth. Guilt is a negative emotion that is counterproductive. Many people engage in hypocrisy or denial to avoid it.
Sorry that some of the decisions you had to make prevented satisfaction in other parts of your life. None of us are given the gift of redoing choices based on hindsight. Predominantly people end up regretting not doing things far more than needing forgiveness for things they should not have done. That makes it even worse that we are told we shouldn’t do things that might bring us pleasure. I waited for marriage and didn’t even masturbate until years after I married. Both decisions I would never suggest for others.
I hope life brings you the things you have been short changed on so far.
Thank you for sharing, I can relate to your younger self in the story, yes guilt and shame. You are correct and I hope you reach more than one person to help them out.
Welcome to the community @Peterpan. I just turned 50 as well. We have one of those scriptural/motivation flip calendars, had it for years,,, this year I noticed what it said on my birth date… "I believe the second half of one's life is meant to be better than the first half. The first half is finding out how you do it. And the second half is enjoying it." So, time to start enjoying life to the fullest!
Along with the great stories/topics and authors on MH, I would suggest Songs Of The Believers – another GREAT Christian, positive sex community.