It’s Getting Better
The more I explore my body, the more I enjoy it. My twofold goal is to understand how God designed me as a woman, and to prepare to be a sexy wife, I read back over my early posts, both the fictional ones and the real-life accounts. I think to myself, “Wow, I’ve learned a lot!” And it isn’t just mental knowledge I’m gaining. Through the goodness of the Lord, my body is adjusting to “thinking” sexually and welcoming those sensations. To be blunt, things are feeling good! I’ll give you an update.
Two days ago, I had an absolutely wonderful masturbation session. I started, as usual, with some towel-grinding, then sat with my back against the bed and fingered myself while watching the show in the mirror. I was carrying on an imaginary conversation with my future husband, teasing him, asking him if he liked watching me. At the time, I had the house to myself, which was nice, so I felt a lot freer (though I still kept my voice low). I was wet in seconds. I’m trying to really take note throughout my monthly cycle of how my body reacts to stimulation and what it’s feeling.
On this occasion, I had just come off my period and I was ready for some serious self-care, including using my vibe. I easily slid a finger inside my pussy (which in itself was remarkable; usually it takes quite some time to warm up and loosen) and fingered around while palming the top of my cleft. It sure felt good. Then, since I was so loose and slippery, I got my vibe out. I rubbed it in my juices and pushed it in. There was zero resistance!
And here’s where it got better: I could literally feel that slim, smooth, dildo-like vibe sliding along my inner walls. It’s as if the nerves in my vagina are waking up to whatever object is invading that space and saying, “Hey, we need to send some signals here!” It’s no longer numb. I don’t know if this is just a miraculous change in my body, or if it’s because of where I was in my cycle. I intend to keep monitoring that!
Anyhow, I screwed myself in a lot of different positions, trying to find the sweetest spot. I find I like lying on my right side, left leg up and hooked on the edge of the bed. The sideways stance seems to grant me the ability to reach usually unreachable places deep within. I was rolling my hips on the vibe, pulling it in and out. Not all the way out, but just to the point where I could feel the rounded head expand my opening. I was also picturing some very hot loving with my future husband.
I was a soaking, dripping mess; fingers were sticky, vulva was sloppy. Sounds gross by itself, but now that I’m fully embracing my God-given sexuality, I love it. I felt that warm wave of convulsing muscles taking over in my core. Laying flat on my back, I shook and my mouth pulled open by the force. That was, I believe, the strongest orgasm I’ve ever had. It lasted quite a few seconds, maybe ten. I was still trembling as it receded. I thought maybe my pussy muscles were going to at last figure out how to squirt. Not this time, but I gained hope. When I pulled the vibe out, a river of fluid followed and oozed down my crack. I was shocked when I felt it. I’ve never had an immediate post-climax “ejaculation” like that.
Often when I go use the restroom after I masturbate, I’ll see a stream of cum flow out. I assume this is because I’m in a vertical position. This was new because I was flat on my back. Though my head was still a jumble of pleasure chemicals, I praised God for another step towards true sexual enjoyment. For me, it’s literally getting better the more I do it. I’m sure marriage is going to be, as some folks say, a “whole ‘nuther story.” But I’m WAY more exited for it than ever before. I think God is telling me sex doesn’t have to be painful or boring, as it is for many women. There are answers, though some of us have to search harder and longer than others.
"Ask, seek, knock!" But with a whole new meaning…oh my. Something tells me it only gets better and better from here. And as always your stories really get me going, and I've loved reading your journey and how Awakened you've become; time for me to go take care of something!
Glad to contribute to that "something"! 😜
I second that, I also needed some self play after reading this!
Welcome back SSS!
It has been enjoyable to watch the wonderful journey you have taken to discover, embrace, and enjoy your God-given sexuality.
Not only have you grown in your understanding and mindset, but your body has, (for lack of a better term), embraced itself and the pleasure it is capable of feeling.
With the “river of fluid” that you’re producing when you cum, I have no doubt that you will soon be able to experience the pure joy and unbridled passionate pleasure of squirting both for your pleasure now and one day for your husband.
I also have to say that position you described is one of my favorites. The penetration is amazing, the view is off the charts, and, (from a man’s perspective), the added feeling of tushy and balls on the feminine thigh while thrusting is very, very nice.
I love your stories, you’re a terrific writer, and I look forward to reading what comes next.
I have enjoyed writing these posts and receiving such kind remarks and advice from everyone. That last observation you made about thrusting while lying sideways…um, I got kind of hot and antsy! I'll be doing that with my man someday!
You go girl! Stay horny dear.
I've really enjoyed following your journey. You are setting an amazing example for not only single ladies waiting to marry, but also married women as well! In our experience, the more often my wife masturbates, the stronger her sex drive. I think a lot of married Christian women should follow your example of exploring your body and masturbating in front of the mirror.
Also, you painted a very sexy picture. For me, there is nothing hotter than the thought of my wife pleasuring herself. I was able to vividly imagine my wife in your story. 🔥🔥🔥🍆
Good! I want my stories to not only arouse the singles, but to inspire the couples to hotter lovemaking. Masturbating to thoughts of your spouse sounds so fun. I can't wait to find my future husband so I can put a face to my dreams!
What a beautiful graphic account of you exploring your intimate body parts.
I pray and hope God sends you a like minded husband with whom you can wholeheartedly enjoy yourselves without inhibitions.
Please don’t think your ‘mess’ was in any way gross (I don’t think you do) – it, together with you husbands juices is the culmination of you loving. You will have had the ‘hots’ for each other resulting in the involuntary secretions of your love juices.
I remember when my wife and I returned to our hotel room after breakfast on the last day of our honeymoon, hearing the ladies who were cleaning the room say, ‘Wow by the look of these sheets, it must have been a honeymoon couple staying in here’ – thy were referring to the cum stained sheets – loads of yellow stains, as you would expect after three nights. (True story). We felt thrilled to have been found out and not in the least bit ashamed !
We were absolutely into (literally) each other, nothing else on our minds but pleasuring each other without inhibition or caring where our love juices flowed.
My wish for you is the same kind of joy with your future husband.
In the meantime, keep exploring and letting us know how things are going.
You have made this 70 old man very aroused and brought back some very happy memories. God bless you and your future husband.
Possibility, that was a beautiful comment. I am so glad to have brought you some joy today. I pray I'll have that kind of honeymoon too!
as I've posted earlier, having an orgasm & experiencing greater pleasure in sexual activities is a LEARNED response.
I read this, & have come to appreciate it's truth in my experiences with my wife. I only wish others could see the value in this belief.. they'd have happier relationships, IMO.
Maybe I can help you if you want to experience squirting, female ejaculation. When you’re relaxed and very aroused slide a your middle two fingers in facing towards your belly with the outer two pointing downward. About an inch to 3 inches in you should feel a lump. Massage the are with a hither to or come here motion. You should feel the spot getting larger and more spongie starting slowly and then more quickly. You should start to feel like you are wanting to pee, keep going till you release. Another technique is similar same finger position this time using your whole arm pressing up and down on the soungie are like pushing a door bell button. The same sensation of wanting to pee will come keep going till you orgasm and squirt. I will be a very profound orgasm. Get some Coconut oil for lubrication. Hope this helps in your journey of sexual discovery. God bless you and enjoy the wonders of your body.
I will definitely try this sometime! Thank you! It will be another step in my journey. If I ever achieve it, I'll be sure to post about it.
I think your journey of self exploration and self love is incredible! I can’t help but think that these new discoveries are preparing you for your future husband!
I know it’s jumping the gun for me to say because I don’t know, but Lord willing, I’m hoping you find your match soon. not only are you gaining physical experience, but I’ve noticed your confidence in yourself and the way you love yourself are improving! It’s awesome to see, and I’m absolutely positive that when you find him, you will absolutely blow the mind of your future spouse in bed
Thank you! It's my goal to be a mind- (and cock-) blowing wife, if God wills it. That is why I am working on all of this. I appreciate your prayers!
It's wonderful to read about your journey of growth and increasing enjoyment! It makes me so happy for you that you're seeing noticeable and significant improvements in your sexual attitude and sexual response. I hope that seeing your own growth and progress is encouraging to you, and that it reinforces your efforts to grow even more!
I totally agree with your assessment on juices! When you say, "I was a soaking, dripping mess; fingers were sticky, vulva was sloppy," I don't think it sounds gross at all! It sounds totally hot! I often fantasize about affectionately calling my future wife "my messy girl" because I want us to make a sexy mess together in our lovemaking.
I also want to ask about the positions you talked about in this story. When you said you lean back against the bed and watch yourself in the mirror, does that mean you're sitting on the floor? Or resting back against the headboard? And when you're on your right side, what do you mean by your left leg being up and hooked on the edge of the bed? I'm having trouble visualizing that for some reason.
Yes, I'm on the floor for both positions. For the lying-down one, I'm on my right side, facing the bed, my left leg up and my ankle resting on the edge of the mattress. I haven't been doing that as much (this post is at least a month old), but it's still enjoyable.
I agree about the juices! I love it now! Someday I will be sharing it all with the man God has set aside for me.
I remember early in our married life, my wife going up to bed before me. After about half an hour, I got up and as I passed the bottom of the stairs I noticed a ah! ahhh! coming from my wife upstairs. Not only did my ears prick (excuse the pun) up so did my cock. More ahh! ahhhhs! I crept upstairs and gently pushed the bedroom door open a bit more and saw my wife lying on her back with her legs open and masturbating. My heart was pounding as I heard the squishy slurping noises as her fingers worked over her vulva, clitoris and vaginal whole. The contorted look on her face as she pleasured herself was mesmerising. I stripped off proudly displaying my erect cock. I went near the bed where her free hand was and she pleasured me while I told her she looked and sounded beautiful wanking. I mounted her taking her hand away from her cunny and thrust inside her in the missionary position. We French kissed passionately until she released, then me flooding her with my spunk. What a night that was !!
Wow LLL another great story! It inspired me to partake in some pussy play as I imagine a future husband preparing to fuck me senseless! I am very turned on and it is beautiful hearing you describe your progress toward appreciating your womanhood! I definitely need to take care of the wetness in my panties and my tingly pussy mmmmm.
Keep up the updates on your masturbation journey!!
SSS, isn’t she great? We all loved her “Cream” story, and she has recently stated she wants to be a squirting, cock-blowing wife for her husband!
You’re something else, too. 🙂
Singles, unite! God bless you.
Thank you, sweetsugarspice! I love your posts too and am happy to see you're back! So happy to inspire another single lady to get hot and go enjoy her sexuality while she waits for her man.
WaitingOnHer, that was kind! Writing this journey has been awesome for me and I'm thrilled if it uplifts others. Yes, singles, let's build each other up in this wonderful area!
This is a beautiful post. I love to hear your experiences, it helps me understand a little more about the female body. I have found my wife's pussy to be a treasure trove of unexplored delights. Over 30 years of marriage and there's still more to discover. She is yet to squirt, it's something I hope I can give her one day.
Oh and your comments about your juice, delicious!
Wow. This is inspiring and encouraging but also incredibly sexy and hot to read.
I actually had to read it a second time, but slowly, and play with myself as I did. And then a third time :p I also showed my wife and she agreed it was incredibly hot. So thank you, for your inspiring story (going back) but also the incredible “aid” you have provided in my/our play time!
I recently read something similar on the Marriage Bed and had a similar reaction. So thank you to you and all others, MH and sites like Marriage Bed in general, who provide content and encouragement like this!
First off, your soaking, dripping, sticky mess is not gross. It is simply your body reacting positively to pleasure. In my own relationship, my wife and I often joke about how wet she sometimes gets and I enjoy getting her that wet. We have a waterproof intimacy bed cover which reduced the need to change sheets especially on de-stress weekends.
It is wonderful that you continue to explore what arouses you, something your future husband will benefit from…, providing he can keep up with you. 🙂
Your writing here is as remarkable as the five-star experience itself. As a Christian woman, I congratulate you on your deeply 'soulful sexuality', a term I use repeatedly in a book I cowrote on the subject. The Holy Spirit is clearly at work when a lady is both as comfortable in her body as you, and also at ease in your desire, which I sense is growing considerably. I love the lack of dissonance here between your body and spirit. What you are doing is bravely impressive. Continue to feed your spirit with love and your body with passion. When a lady's erotic passion and spiritual passion meet in ways like yours, it is truly something special, worthy of sainthood. Surely you make God smile.
That is so kind! Thank you! All of this progress is due to the Lord's blessing on me, and I praise Him for it all the time. I want to break away from the mold that many (if not most) Christian women have fallen into, entering marriage with a prudish or constrained view of sex and pleasure and withholding that pleasure from their husbands, thus resulting in miserable, dead, sexless marriages. Please God, I will be completely opposite of that!