An Update from LLL
I’d like to share a bit of personal testimony with you, my MH family.
It’s December 2024 as I write this, and I’ve had a several-month-long struggle with a return of depression which has interfered with my sexual journey. It may be a while before I feel the full interest and excitement that I had up to this October, but I have a lot of hope. God has been very close to me, showing me His tenderness in ways that I can only experience while in the depths, and revealing that His intimacy is what I need above all else.
I am doing better each day as I continue the protocol to address the condition I’ve been diagnosed with. Yet there remain some strange sensations. It’s hard to explain what I’m feeling; there seems to be a mental veil between me and the world around me. My brain is taking in information incorrectly, rendering people and faces unreal to my perception. This is due to neuro-inflammation, and will, I am certain, be healed as I tackle the root cause. I’m really thankful that I finally have a diagnosis and a doctor who is addressing it naturally.
I’m thankful for the intimacy I’ve had with the Lord as I fill my mind with His Word nonstop and commit my way to Him, trusting Him to bring it to pass. And I am so thankful to everyone here, for your prayers, your encouragement, and your kind comments on my stories. I pray I will feel awesome in the near future and get back into this circle with wholehearted energy and spice. You’re all such blessings!
LLL,
Praying for your healing. I appreciate you and your posts.
Thank you so much. The prayers of fellow believers mean so much to me, and I know they rise to God's Throne and move Him to do mighty things. Also, know that I pray for you and everyone else on MH. This community is such a blessing to me.
Jesus is definitely there when we're in our worst seasons. I just hope that I can remember that when I am riding high and everything is going well, to still run back to God. Thanks for opening up on here, you are definitely supported by all the people in this community! Much love and prayers. <3
Thank you so much!
I’m so sorry to hear you’re hurting in this way. Prayers up for a quick recovery.
Your prayers mean so much. Thank you!
Oh of course. I messaged to one of your other stories recently. You’ve been such an inspiration to me recently. I want good things for you, you have a kindness that is so lovely.
I’m praying for you, LLL!
I’ve experienced head injuries and sometimes struggle with paranoia and headaches. Please know you’re not alone! I love you in Christ, my sister. Vanessa and I will be praying for you.
-NorthernSky
Thank you, brother in Christ. I appreciate you sharing your own issues. I'm so sorry you have experienced that. Please pass my thanks on to your wife as well for her prayers.
LLL I am sorry you are going through this. I have had by own challenges with my mental health. God bless you.
Thank you! God bless and prosper you as well.
Lord, you are the great physician. Place your hand on LLL, heal her mind and body and grant your peace. Place loving and caring people around her to support, encourage and strengthen. In Jesus Name Amen
That is beautiful and so kind. Thank you! I know God is working on behalf of all those who are calling on His name.
Awesome prayer Romantic Adventurer, could not pray it any better for LLL, amen!
Thank you, Victor. And may this year bring many of the things of God’s grace into your life
I’m praying with you and for you LLL. You’re very brave to share your journey, and I’m glad that you are doing better each day.
Fervent prayers for LLL. Your attitude & appreciation are always very encouraging, even now in this trial. I'm glad we are all church together laughing & crying with you. Take your time, it's ok. No worries. God's got this. Touch & minister, Lord. Heal her up. In Jesus name, amen.
I'm sorry to hear you're going through this, but so thankful you're choosing to lean into God during this time. Running to him for refuge rather than drifting away from him is one of the most important decisions you can make in any life challenge. I know this from my own personal health struggles, even though they're much different than yours. I can sympathize with the burden of health issues interfering with the enjoyment of life.
I'm also glad to hear that you're looking toward the future and the beauty it contains, rather than letting yourself be stuck in the present darkness. Looking to future hope is one of the many important examples Jesus gave us. (Hebrews 12:2, ESV: "…looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him edured the cross…")
I pray for God's healing for you, for him to strengthen your faith, and for your increased appreciation of all his blessings through your challenges.
That is very kind. Thank you so much. The prayers of this community have helped and lifted me incredibly.
How we love you Jesus! Thank you so much for Lovely Lonely Lady. Thank you so much for the way she is so willing to be so transparent, something I want to learn from. Lord, you have told us how we will experience struggles in this life and You have also told us you would walk with us through them. Thank you Lord for the way you are holding your dear daughter close durning this difficult time. Please Father, continue to hold her tight. Thank you Lord for this doctor and we ask that you would continue to work through him to bring complete healing to LLL, mind, body, and soul. In the wonderful name of Jesus, Amen.
I learned a long time ago that ones masturbation practice is a good barometer of ones health.
Lack of masturbation from loss of libido or stresses, or too busy or poor health physical or mental (in your case depression), all indicate there is a problem that needs to be dealt with.
I wrote a story on another website of an occasion relating to my oldest daughter. It was for Mothers Day some years ago, she was so busy honouring me that in her business exhausted herself and it even caught up on her the next day, and that added to her stress, (ironic, given that masturbating oneself helps with stress).
With a teasing sister and myself, she did take care of herself.
We pray for your recovery and balance in your life.
Sarah K.
Which highlights the importance of having someone to give you support.
In my own journey of healing from inflammation and how it affects my ADHD symptoms, I’ve learned sources can include soy, non-organic cotton underwear, pesticides, and lack of nutrients in common “healthy foods” due to overgrowing with fertilizer instead of God’s natural processes and composting. Try eating from a farmers market and getting rid of polyester, spandex, plastic, etc clothing!
Yes! Totally agree. My issue is chronic inflammation and I definitely try to keep my diet and use of products as pure as I can. It sure is hard though when organic stuff is more expensive. But almost all of my body care products are natural and organic and I have a very clean diet.
I'm praying for you!
Praying for you! Rendering faces incorrectly is a very serious symptom. Has your doctor ruled out the possibility of brain cancer?
Yes, it isn't that I'm seeing anything weird. It's more that I'm zeroing in on individual features and not seeing faces as a whole. The doctor says that is all due to chronic inflammation, including in the brain. I have a genetic predisposition to inflammation.
Praying for your healing, and I pray often that God will give you the desires of your heart – a man who
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LLL, praying and agreeing with you for full healing and restoration
Prayers and good will to you.
You'll get back to the light even though it might seem dark.
Everything happens for a reason and with good intentions and a will to believe you will be rewarded.
A and v x