A Bit More Realistic
I’ve mentioned before that, while I dislike porn, I am fine with videos of real couples having sex. It’s been very enlightening and moved me away from embarrassment and repulsion. I’ve also found that videos of guys (preferably when they don’t show their faces) masturbating and talking sexy are very arousing. I sometimes watch (or just listen) to these while rubbing or grinding, and I picture myself and my future husband making love.
Sometimes it’s hard for me to imagine what my man would really say or how he’d sound, so these types of video/audio make the scene much more realistic for me. I hope this isn’t wrong. I’m not lusting for the men in these videos, and I have no addiction issue. But I’d enjoy feedback from any others of you faithfully-unmarried folks on MH. Do you use any sort of stimulation (video, audio, toys, mirror) to help you fantasize about your future spouse?
Speaking of mirrors, about three masturbation sessions back, I started doing it in front of the mirror, sitting with my back against the bed and legs spread as I explored my vulva and worked my middle finger inside. I could almost see my future husband seated behind me, his hand entwined with mine as we teased and stimulated my mound. It was very hot and, in a way, sweet. As a teenager, I wouldn’t even look at myself in the mirror while naked because I felt it was so inappropriate and embarrassing. Now I strut around in full confidence of my femininity (in the seclusion of my bedroom, though!) and enjoy the view. These things have helped me grow sexually and plan ahead for the day I might give one man great pleasure. That is my goal, second only to loving and pleasing Jesus. This site is another of those tools, and I thank God for steering me here.
Again, I’d enjoy feedback from any other of you faithfully-unmarried folks on MH.
(MH Editor’s Note: Since all MH members have been in the past or now are unmarried, we would encourage any MH member to feel free to comment on this post.)
I don't think you are addicted to porn or anything, just enjoying your sexuality. Masturbating and fantasizing is a great way to learn your body and what you like, etc. Imagining have sex with a partner is good and nothing to be emarrassed about. I hope someday you find Mr. Right and can share your fantasies with him.
From what I have learned and know about my wife, I would probably never marry a woman that admitted she never masturbated or had fantasies. If you don't masturbate when single, you are likely low sex drive and low interest; just my thoughts. I would love a woman that admitted she did it and enjoyed it!
This sounds perfectly healthy to me. I think erotic videos of real couples (not actors), can be helpful educationally, and enhance one’s state of arousal. I also love masturbating to videos like this, and I agree that I don’t lust after the people in the videos. You seem to be doing a very God-honoring thing… instead of being sexual with a bunch of men to “learn,” you are also not trying to shut off your God-designed sex drive. Masturbation, fantasy, and erotica are great ways to celebrate your future marriage. Hopefully your future husband is doing the same!
Others will probly disagree, but I have no problem with this. You’ve mitigated potential risks or issues I would see. Addiction, or being enthralled with someone else. All of this sounds very hot!
That said – the person you find may see this differently. There was definitely a time for me that I would have been taken aback and would have felt that this was wrong. So sharing this information with your future spouse you would want to do in a… very careful way, I would say!
Hey, LLL!
I’m very excited and proud of you for gaining confidence in your body and your sexuality! Your future hubby will be very excited when you two begin exploring each others “Hot Spots.”
Believe me, just knowing what turns you on gives you a big head start on your sexual relationship, so keep exploring your body, and don’t forget your sensitive breasts!
LLL. I want to comment on your post.
I will agree that the viewing of a real married couple having monogamous sex etc. in my opinion, is not the same as viewing unmarried couples having sex – or threesomes or groups or swingers etc. But I still think regular viewing of married couples having sex is probably not wise.
I read a study about married couples who watched pornography and it showed thst the couples experienced less stability and less commitment. Couples who did not watch pornography reported more commitment and more stability plus they had greater satisfaction in their marital sex life.
That being said, I will admit that I find many of the MH stories on married sex to be inspiring and enlightening. That is why I have posted over 100 MH stories with most of them being absolutely true experiences Melody & I have had together. I’ve written some fictional stories, too, and I really admire your MH stories! I pray for you that you will get to experience the beauty of marriage and married sex one day.
As a Christian society, I believe we are really too closed-mouth about the glories of marital sex.
But I do not think viewing videos of someone masturbating is appropriated.
But I may seem to contradict myself when I say that some educational sex videos or sex position pictures are probably useful to improve a person’s or a couple’s sex life. But I don’t feel that type of picture or educational sex video should be watched excessively either.
Finally, I will say that, speaking as an artist who occasionally draws nudes, the human body is among God’s greatest creations. And the nude human body can be viewed and admired without always sexualizing nudity.
Pardon me if my comments are kinda rambling. You are a delightful young woman who writes historical married romances with married sex scenes. And you write them so well! I applaud you for that. But I am worried about some of the videos you are watching. I hope that I have not offended you with my viewpoints.
No offense taken! As I asked for advice and comments, I should be willing to listen to all views expressed. Thank you for bringing up your aspect. The studies on couples who did and did not watch porn is interesting to me, and it's definitely something I would discuss with my future husband. I wonder if a person's situation plays into it. For me, watching these videos (or listening to audio) is a tool to put me into a marriage scenario. So if I marry, it may be that I will no longer need that. I don't know. It boils down to self-control in many ways. If I, and future husband, can enjoy this stuff without lusting for the subjects, then I see no sin. But I will bear this all in mind! Thank you for the compliments on my stories! I really love yours as well!
Dear Ellie (LLL? Three L’s? “L’y”?):
I was delighted to read this post, and want to encourage you on your awakening journey! So many things to affirm! Overall, think of your awakening journey as the development of your “character” in the real-life story of you. This post represents a wonderful, huge, significant “character arc” for you! As a writer, I know you’ll get “character arc”.
Your caution about “porn” per se is good, although many people define it different ways. You work it out for yourself. I’m glad you like vids of guys masturbating. Let’s call a spade a spade – you like to watch guys stroke their cock and balls and shoot cum! That’s how God created male stuff to work! It’s not “bad”. Love it!
And I’m pretty confident that He didn’t create women to be turned off by that! I can’t believe Eve saw Adam’s junk and experienced his orgasm, and then told God He made a mistake! I’m pretty sure God knew how to make guy’s parts and woman’s appreciation of them well-aligned! So keep loving it!
Similarly, now you’re watching yourself play with your pussy in the mirror? Fantastic! I don’t think God made a mistake when He designed pussy! So embrace it, enjoy it, celebrate it! Make love to your pussy, and thank God for how amazing it is!
(I don’t mean to speak sexually graphic to be salacious. I always speak this way to break down a false formality and “properness” that often reinforces shame and imprisons sexuality. “Penis and vagina” are not somehow more holy than “cock and pussy”.)
I’m glad you’re moving past your “repulsion”, “embarrassment”, and “inappropriate” phase. It’s tough that you felt that way, whatever the cause (society, church, family, friends, etc.) The creator God of the universe made majestic mountains, cute baby toes, amazing eagle eyes, and our sexual parts! He pronounced it all good!
Keep “throwing off” those negatives and keep embracing a positive, Christian, monogamous sexuality with enthusiasm! It will serve you well now and when you meet your future hub.
So I can only encourage you to keep walking your sexual awakening path, keep working your passion character arc, and keep wanting a rip-roaring sexual life with your future husband!
When you share self-revelatory posts like this, I feel like I’m reading a novel, “Ellie: My Story of Sexual Awakening”, and it’s a page-turner! Thanks for being open here on MarriageHeat. God bless!
Thank you! I am grateful that I can be a blessing in sharing my personal story. I'm sure there will be more to come!
I believe it’s very important to discover yourself sexually and explore those needs. Like so many people, I grew up completely ignorant of sex and discovered masturbation quite by accident. Over the years, I’ve used it as an outlet to fantasies and as a gap filler for an empty sex life. I’ve struggled with guilt over it, but Biblically, I believe it’s a perfectly healthy way to release sexual tension and discover your body. The fact that you are using it to gain confidence sexually and gain confidence in your body put you into a small category of people. As far as the videos, I won’t get into that much, but I don’t believe the act of seeing other people have sex is wrong in context.
As others have said, I think self-exploration of your body is a great way to know what feels good when you meet your future husband. My wife was from a much more conservative background, and I'm sure she never explored herself in private. Unfortunately, I was not a virgin when we dated/married (and we know that's water under the bridge in God's eyes). Even with some (limited) previous experience, I didn't even know all about my own body OR desires at first. Now, it was a wonderful experience to share ourselves with each other, and get to 'know' each other and ourselves, but even then it was years before we really had what we considered to be ( in our opinion) the fantastic sex life we enjoy today. (In tune with each other's bodies AND minds). Our initial years of married sex were satisfying, but average compared to what has become fantastic. As my stories relate, it was years before I realized some of my own 'intimate preferences'–But also, physical and psychological relationships do sometimes take time and effort to build. You are laying some groundwork so when you meet your partner, you"ll have a tremendously satisfying sex life from the very start!
As a widower for over 12 years, masturbation has long been my sole sexual outlet. While I certainly long for a spouse, I don't feel any guilt or desire to deny my need for relelase through masturbation in the meantime. For me, I don't feel video of any kind is a safe place for me. I know that isn't the case for everyone, but I don't feel comfortable with it. I do enjoy audio on occasion and toys on an almost daily basis. I think mirrors can be great, but my housing situation doesn't permit it often.
I totally understand where you’re at because, as a single guy, I’m on the same page with disliking porn. So much of it is just degrading, exploitative, violent, and disgusting. However, I really enjoy videos of women masturbating, as well as occasionally watching videos of real couples making love. It’s just so amazingly beautiful to watch a woman fully embracing her God-given sexuality.
I love the breathing and the gentle moans a woman often makes as she builds up and finally climaxes. I love to see how a woman’s body changes as she becomes more aroused and watch how she stimulates herself—sometimes just rubbing her clitoris, sometimes putting (a) finger(s) inside her vagina, often rubbing a nipple at the same time. I marvel at how incredibly beautiful and unique each woman’s vulva is. It really heightens my orgasmic pleasure to masturbate along and time my climax with that of the woman I’m watching in the video.
It’s also beautiful to watch married couples who really love each other (and aren’t just performing) give each other pleasure. It’s especially arousing seeing a husband giving his wife loving cunnilingus as she squirms with delight.
However, I struggle with guilt about this because I wonder if it’s sinful for me to be looking at naked women? It seems that from Scripture I can’t make a clear argument that it is sinful, but I just “feel” bad about it afterwards, and I wonder if that’s the Holy Spirit convicting me of sin or just my own inhibitions put in me by Christian culture? I really don’t know.
In any event, I long for the day when I have a wife to give pleasure to (I really look forward to giving my wife cunnilingus!) and hopefully one who will also be comfortable with masturbating herself and letting me watch (as I’d be happy to do for her). I’d love to watch each other masturbate and time our orgasms simultaneously. The trouble is, most Christian women have much more prudish standards on these things, which is difficult to navigate.
I really appreciate you sharing your journey as a single lady, LLL, and I kind of wish more Christian single women were on the same journey as you and shared this perspective on sexuality. God bless you!
I too wish there were more Christian gals out there who were addressing this! I know of some who have blogs or YouTube channels, but other than this site, most are not as Biblically free as they could be. We all won't have the exact same views, I guess. I'm glad there are men out there too who are exploring, in Godly fashion, their sexuality. Sometimes I feel like there aren't! We single folks just have to serve where we are in life and trust that the Lord will converge our path with our future spouses.
Amen, LLL! I wish more Christians would carefully study the Bible on these issues and see that there is no prohibition on exploring one’s body through masturbation, and also that there aren’t prohibitions on appreciating nudity in a healthy manner. Getting back to your original post, it is for these reasons that I don’t see a Biblical argument to say that watching a video of a man or woman masturbating is inherently sinful. The act itself is not inherently sinful, and seeing their body is not inherently sinful. Sin then would come down to intent in the heart. If I’m coveting the woman in the video and actually wishing I could have sex with her, I’d be sinning. But if I’m simply appreciating her beauty and being inspired by her giving herself an orgasm to give myself one as well, I’m not sinfully lusting. It would be the same for you or any other woman watching a video of a man masturbating. I think it’s awesome that you enjoy the sounds and visuals! I think it’s basically the same thing as with this site where we are sharing our experiences to inspire one another. And there are some very beautiful and sexy photographs even on some of the stories here.
I also totally agree with you that we just have to keep faithfully serving the Lord and wait for Him to bring us the right spouse, and in the mean time we can explore our sexuality and prepare for marriage within a Biblical perspective.
Update: I wanted to thank you because this post really inspired me. I hadn’t masturbated in five days, and after reading this post and writing my first comment, I felt all hot and bothered and wound up giving myself two incredibly intense climaxes. I sat on my floor with my back against my bed, much as you described doing in this post. I watched and listened to a video of a woman using a magic wand vibrator. I also added in something I don’t usually do- using the underside of my electric toothbrush to give myself some vibration in various places- nipples, perineum, balls, and underside of my penis tip. Now I need to clean up my floor lol.
I am not a proponent of porn. That said, your very brief session report sounds as if your masturbation session was super hot! Love the perineum and nipples play with the vibrations!
Glad to have offered some instigation for personal time! I am getting back into a more perpetually-aroused mood after concluding my period, so I will be making time for that too. 😉
@1blessedman, I understand and appreciate your differing perspective on “porn”. Like I said above, most of it I think is immoral, because it is portraying immoral acts (fornication, adultery, homosexuality, orgies, etc), however since I don’t think masturbation is sinful, and I don’t think nudity is inherently sinful, I don’t think watching a video of a woman masturbating is sinful. (Now of course, like anything it must be done in moderation to avoid addiction.) Just my own conclusion from logic and Biblical study, but I fully respect differing views.
On stimulating my nipples, it’s something I’m trying to incorporate into my play time more often. My nipples aren’t super sensitive, but I definitely feel some increased pleasure when I stimulate one simultaneously with penis stimulation.
Have fun, LLL! 😉 I saw a comment of yours a while back where you talked about getting a vibrator and said you might share your experience with that in the future. I really look forward to hearing about that! I’m considering getting a stroker because I think it simulates a real vagina more closely, and I don’t want to get too used to the feel of just my hand such that it causes problems in my future (Lord-willing) marriage. I think there’s a tendency with hand stroking to move up and down much faster and squeeze tighter than actual intercourse would be. Some of my best orgasms have been from laying face down on my bed rubbing my penis into a blanket, simulating missionary position intercourse with my future wife. I’d love to do something like this with a stroker sleeve.
Why don’t LLL and lonelyfarmer get together and date? Sounds like they have much in common.
If it happens that my future spouse is also on this site, the Lord will have to work out the way in which we meet. At present I can't really go to my parents and say, "I'm interested in getting to know a guy who takes part in discussions on a hot marriage sex story blog I enjoy!" And it is very important to me to have my parents involved in any courtship or relationship I enter. So, all I can say is, it's in God's hands!
LovelyLonelyLady, thank you for sharing this. It's good to hear about the things that help with your own desires. As a single man myself, I'd be interested in knowing what you find makes a good video of a guy masturbating. You mention faces not being shown and talking sexy. Are there certain ways of doing it or angles that are most appealing? What kinds of things do you like to hear? Sounds like breathing, talking about how it makes him feel, what he's doing as he goes? For myself, I usually use a pillow between my legs or under me so that there is something to press into or against, like the pressure a woman's body would provide. I thrust deeply like that until I'm ready to orgasm and then usually turn on my back to shoot the cum across my chest. Occasionally, I might not turn in order to carry the pressure of the thrusting right into the orgasm and to give a final thrust as deep as I can while cumming, but that makes for more cleanup. Have always done it that way more than just using my hands to grip my penis and sliding up and down the shaft, though both can work. I'd be curious what you think makes a good video though and what your preferences are there.
Whew, I'm not sure where to start! There are several things that, to me, are really sexy about a guy masturbating. I like when he's standing up and stroking, and his lower belly clenches a lot. As I said in this post, my favorite part of a guy is the V-line, so if that's nice and pronounced, I find it really hot. A rear view of him grinding on a bed, or standing and thrusting into a fleshlight/sleeve is also delicious, since I enjoy watching a tight butt flex and relax. I also really like if he's vocal—grunting, groaning, and TALKING. I have an upcoming post about dirty talk, or as I call it, "hot talk". My preference is a really low, rich, masculine voice; higher or softer voices don't appeal to me too much. To sum up, I love rawness. It's great when the guy just lets go.
Thanks for the detail. Interesting the visual details that stand out. As a guy, maybe it's easy to zero in on the hard cock — the visual of it standing erect when aroused, of it penetrating and thrusting, and of it shooting cum at orgasm. Good reminder to notice and look out for the other things that stand out to women. I'd need a mirror like you to see my own butt though! I think a lot of the appeal to me in watching a woman masturbate, apart from the visuals of her breasts, vulva, legs, and busy hands, is also in the total abandon. The raw, undisguised pleasure that she can't hide. A lot of that is displayed in the face though, so I think I would want to see faces. I guess it would also show in the urgency of her hand motions and if the intensity of her orgasms led to her entire body shaking or convulsing. Looking forward to your upcoming posts!
I know that I'm a bit late to this discussion but thanks so much for your post LLL. When I did use to watch videos my tastes were similar to yours (as a single women that also enjoys masturbating). I don't tend to watch them now because I started to get resentful and wonder why I couldn't experience something like that, especially when it came to watching couples. It made me more sad than inspired at the end. I know that MH is a marriage website but the matter of the fact is that for us singles, marriage isn't guaranteed or even promised from God. Whether we have a high sex drive or not, God isn't obligated to give us marriage so masturbation is a great inbetween for those of us with a high sex drive.
As for the mirrors, they also grew on me as well. Before there's no way I'd ever touch myself in front of one but nowadays when I'm alone in the house (which is pretty rare) I may do that and it's super hot to me (feels a bit vain writing that but oh well).
I go through phases when it comes to masturbating due to cycles and general busyness of life. Some periods I'll do it everyday and then I won't for a week or two. I prefer toys to hands (mainly because of my nails – they're medium to long) so if I want to use my hands I have to wear gloves which kinda takes the fun out of it lol. Also I tend to have much stronger orgasms with toys and more recently multiples which has been amazing. I do only have 1 toy that I'm using at the moment since again, due to my living situation, ordering them in is a bit tricky.
I don't tend to use aids anymore, I just mainly focus on the pleasure aspect…that enough is a reason to have some fun, right?!
I hope your back here, love your comments.
I loved hearing your aspect. Sounds like we have similar situations. Yes, it can be tough knowing that we possibly will never get married. Due to my unique personality and psychology, however, I'm fully content staying single. It's weird, because I think I do have a high-ish sex drive. Only time will tell! Keep exploring yourself and enjoying the gifts you do have from God. We ladies have to stick together and build each other up!
@Peterpan – That's very sweet of you to say. I'll try my best 🙂 Life has gotten super busy so I'm not on here as much but I'll try to post more in the discussion questions (since I can't really add to the stories on here haha). I do have a possible question that I may submit on here as post so that might get me back on here again. Thanks again.
@LovelyLonelyLady – Likewise and agreed. As I've gotten older I've also gotten more content at never getting married. Things like masturbation do help however since it does take the edge off. I would certainly be 100% more frustrated if I didn't have that as an outlet. Thanks for your posts too; we do have to stick together, and they're really helpful to read 🙂
@SinglePringle, as a single guy, I totally relate to getting resentful seeing videos of couples making love, wishing I could experience that. So I tend to stick with videos of women masturbating. There's just something so erotic about masturbating along with a woman, seeing her different stages of arousal, how she touches herself (some women focus on rubbing their clits while others put fingers inside their vaginas), and the sounds she makes (both her ragged breathing/moaning and the sounds of her fingers or toy in her wet pussy). It usually takes longer for the woman in the video to reach orgasm than it could for me, so I get to practice edging and then try to time my release right at the moment of hers. The amount of semen I can ejaculate when I do this is amazing to me! It definitely helps me get by as a single guy who can't have sex outside of marriage.
I'm late to this post, but I just wanted to say I can kinda relate to this.
I go back and forth on videos, but I typically watch them. There is obviously a clear difference in watching something that a couple made and watching something violent.
I agree with what you said about for us who are single, there is no promise of getting married. We have to learn to deal with this part of our humanity and its very difficult.
Sometimes I wish there was more of a focus on finding good outlets for people who are single. This site is pretty much the only one we can talk openly about sexual things as both Christians and singles, but the name of the site is literally "MARRIAGE"heat.
The fact is we are alll having to figure out what we think is ok. Masturbating at all? thinking of someone? watching something? listening to something? reading something. Is it ok to enjoy it or should you do it only as a "release" when its really needed? Is it ever REALLY "needed" or is that just an excuse?
We also have to think of things on both ends of the spectrum. The original poster mentioned that they liked watching videos of men masturbating while they touch themselves. Is it ok to watch that? and if so, does that also mean it so ok to create those videos, because if its always 100% of the time wrong to create those types of videos then I have a hard time imagining it would be ok to consume them.
There is also the argument of, if you wouldn't want someone you arn't married to seeing your body while you do that, then isn't it also wrong to view it? Doesn't that make us hypocrites for watching it? Maybe it's the reason why that matters? Maybe its ok if you don't want to make a video because you are shy about people seeing your body but you don't have a moral issue with it, vs not wanting to make a video because you think its morally wrong, despite watching videos. If you did that, I think you would feel like you are doing something morally wrong.
I feel trapped sometimes because there is no real place to have these discussions. Like, yes we can post about it here, and that's certainly better than nothing, but a few forum post back and forth can't compare to messages back and forth, which can't compare to a phone call, which can't compare to talking to someone in person face to face about these types of personal issues.
I feel like this is such an important issue we all have to figure out, and we have to figure it out on our own without any help.
Lonelyfarmer, my account of my first vibrator will be posted soon! Hope you enjoy it.
This question might not be allowed…but where would one find tasteful videos like you mentioned that are only spouses or faces obscured or masturbation, etc? Does a site or exist that limits the material to married couples/for married couples? Exhibited in an tasteful/healthy way?
I am looking for tastefully done videos myself. Have you gotten any leads?
Unfortunately I haven't found any sites specifically dedicated to married sex videos. However, there are a lot of real couples who post their actual sex lives on mainstream porn channels. I don't like that because of what else is easily accessed, but it's one positive aspect. I'll just search for "real married couples sex". I've discovered several couples whose videos I enjoy. You can tell it's not staged or acting by the camera quality and angles and the settings (bedroom, kitchen, outdoors, car). Plus, they don't all look like models, though I do prefer it when people are more fit. Maybe someone needs to start a website for Christians where married couples can submit anonymous videos of their sex lives. There would be rules and careful oversight, so no immorality or abuse would be permitted. Hmm, it's getting me thinking!
I have good memories too about using the mirror while touching myself. It's great fun and gives you good fun thinking about your future partner.
I used to watch some porn, but haven't really debated the morality of it since I haven't felt the need for it in my marriage in a long time. I do think it's so much hotter to watch a real married couple having real sex than it is to watch contrived scenes from some pornographer's imagination that don't show any love at all. Sometimes I make bedroom movies with my husband to watch later, though I can't say we've actually watched them very often, either. Actually the stories on MarriageHeat turn me on more than visual porn. There are some great writers on here.
As a former user of porn in my marriage bed with my bride, I now avoid any and all explicit videos of sex, not because I fear I’ll be sucked in again, but simply because my conscience will not allow me. The same for my bride, There were many serious and debilitating trust issues that arose because of the immoral sex we were choosing to watch. That and the fact that we found we could not get aroused without a porn session first. Fortunately, our acceptance of the forgiveness of God has restored our natural arousal, but only after a regrettable and very, very long dry spell in our marriage (so much time wasted!).
So, I’m wondering, LovelyLonelyLady, from where are you getting these videos? I ask because I don’t wish to support any pornographers through the “free” porn available, and because I know that only pornographers make such videos available for free! Besides that, there is no way to trust that the heading "Husband and Wife do…” are actually a husband and wife, even if it’s an amateur video.
However, on a purely reasonable side concerning the filming of sex between a married couple, I can’t say I’d call it “pornography" because the very word means "a record of sexual immorality” and marital sex is not immoral.
Still, there are questions of conscience from inordinate lust that can come into play when watching such videos, but I am curious as to who would be producing and publishing them and how they make them available.
I think this is beautiful. Tbh, I sometimes listen to sweet/sexy audios of a woman masturbating or talking, aka “ramblefap”. I just imagine what it will be like with my future wife & sometimes it makes me feel less lonely. I especially like the ones that mention love/impregnation, just makes me feel love, so I totally get where you are coming from!! & I can relate, it’s not trying to be dirty, but there’s almost like a need to be intimate, you know? I can’t wait to be married & I know the same is true for you, just to truly experience it all & not have to wonder or fantasize about it. Lovely post!
PS-Not trying to blow up your posts or the site, I’m just new here & am taking in all these amazing & sexy posts. Haha. ❤️
I too don't like porn but every once in a while will watch a real married couple or a woman masturbate. When I was younger, I could suck my head, but not anymore!
LLL,
You and I think a LOT alike on a lot of topics.
Too bad that I am more than twice your age.
And, too bad that I don't know how to message you directly.