The Letter J
“A poem of desire”
J…J…the mystical letters are the only thing I see in the midst of a chaotic and mundane world called “life”.
My straight gaze within my soul refuses to divert its fixation on the source of my life. Yes, I mean my life (other than GOD who sustains me). You, my heart, are also the cup worth living for… my wellbeing.
J… the hypnotic letter jumps out to me in its intimate form — “Joel” — exerting its dominance as a strong magnetic field too difficult to repel. You ignite my innermost chambers of unmet desires.
My intimidating sexuality, which had been locked away and suppressed, now blossoms into full fruition as a dripping, ripened fruit bursting to be eaten. Its juices are yours to savor, but where are you? All I need is for you to fill me up with a refilling of your captivating love. The refilling of you…
The emptiness is too much to bear. My womanhood cries out for your manhood when my soundness of mind and consciousness are being compromised by the force of unmet needs. I cannot help but dive into the remedy of eroticism, filling my eyes and ears as a vehicle to be reconnected to your fearful soul again. In my mind, it is you and I in the stories, giving each other such pleasures. I seek release at my own touch, though my flesh longs for unity with yours.
Why must we be apart? One day I will obtain the peace that surpasses all understanding. But until then, it is devastating to be without you when I am still mending.
Interesting story. My wife's name begins with J.
I can sympathize with you, Koolangel. The letter J has become an important one in my own journey toward finding a lifelong love in marriage. If it's his plan, I pray God brings that special "J" more fully into your life very soon!