I have to admit that intimacy with my husband was very awkward when we first got married. We saved everything for our wedding day. After we said I do, everything was legal. I started wondering if I kissed right. How do we kiss? And when we came together as one for the first time, we didn’t know anything. How do we start? Where do we put his penis? Where was my vaginal hole? But getting started was easier than we’d expected. Our bodies just reacted to each other. I never felt my body react that way before.
Then I saw and felt something I never had before; a penis—my husband’s penis. It was unreal, very hard but very soft. When we tried to become one, it was hard. But sex is about learning. We didn’t expect to have to be in just the right position for it to fit in. We didn’t expect we would have to search for my hole. It was actually fun trying.
When we did find the opening and became one, it was probably one of the most amazing things ever, warm and tender. My body just craved more and more. We also didn’t expect sex to end so soon. I thought, in the moment, that it would last forever. Instead, our first time lasted a few minutes. It was special regardless, but we didn’t know that’s how it would be.
The feel of my husband’s semen inside me was an unexpected sensation too. I heard the first grunt from my husband as he filled me up, then felt a warmth as it dripped out of me. We didn’t know this would happen, didn’t know sex could be messy. I also hadn’t learned that peeing after sex was important or that I would feel a little sore down there. Nothing bad, but my body had to get used to sex. I didn’t know that, after our honeymoon, having sex every day and multiple times a day would be unrealistic for us. It was fun but too exhausting. So sex went from daily to a few times a week.
We had fun learning different positions, finding what works and what didn’t, what we liked or disliked. My husband and I would lay next to each other, just touching one another. It surprised me to see that touching could lead to my husband’s semen all over my hand and to feel how much my husband’s hands could do to me. Most shocking of all was learning about orgasms. I was never told about them—I didn’t even know what one was. I know it is a special gift from God. It’s amazing how my husband and I are still learning: how sex is more than just two bodies coming together. I use to be embarrassed not knowing or still learning, but that’s the great thing. My husband and I are learning together.
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