A Fantasy Fulfilled
Recently, for the first time, I watched my wife masturbate to orgasm. This is how it happened.
We have, in recent years, changed things up a bit. My Parkinson’s Disease complications after having Deep Brain Stimulation have affected my own ability to reach orgasm. I’ve only had an orgasm with her twice during intercourse and at least once with a blow job. Those happened in the last two years since the DBS surgery.
I have to explain that last one a bit. It is, in effect, how my wife has seen me masturbate to orgasm. While she licks my penis under the hood, I’ll pump it up and down to help stimulate it to orgasm. I have yet to reach orgasm with just her sucking my dick, which started about eight and a half years ago. Before that, she wouldn’t suck my dick at all.
Anyway, she had never masturbated in front of me, at least seriously. She would sometimes play with herself distractedly while doing something else—just a place for her hand to go when she was lying naked on the bed.
At this particular time, my PD problems were creating more ED problems than usual, despite having taken some Viagra. So penetration had become problematic. I tried to get it stiff again by massaging it. It felt good but didn’t get me hard, despite my wife lying on her back in front of me, naked and hot. I was trying to massage myself and her at the same time. But the logistics of the process had become difficult to pull off. So I had an idea.
I said, “Hey, honey. Do you think you could take over your part and masturbate to orgasm?”
She responded by reaching down and taking over. It left me free to concentrate on myself while I watched her go to town. As her arousal morphed into an orgasm, she closed her eyes. She started flicking her clit harder and harder.
I noticed that, in response to watching her, I had become stiff. I hit rock-hardness as I watched her climax. She lifted her rear off the bed and whimpered as her contractions hit. I could imagine the waves of pleasure she felt. I hoped it might result in my own orgasm. But despite the stiffness and the great feelings, it never hit the orgasmic high that she had reached. It grew soft as she relaxed. I kept pumping because it still felt good for several minutes after that.
Despite not reaching orgasm, I was delighted. Why? Because we had shared an experience about which I had previously only fantasized! I got to watch my wife masturbate to orgasm! And it was hot. I mean, hot enough to make my non-compliant penis respond with a lot of sexual energy.
Yes, I find watching her having an orgasm to be one of the most erotic things I’ve ever experienced. Thank you, God, for helping me to fulfill that fantasy.
I’ve added a new fantasy to that list: to have her make a video of herself masturbating. Now, that would be a gift I could really get off on!
We have never done this together as well and something on my list of "talking points" for her now that our children are moved on with their lives. Thank you for the imagery and thoughts
Congrats MaxLoving! Watching my wife jill off to orgasm is my favorite thing to look at, ever! And now we masturbate together all the time… it’s our #1 “position”. Maybe this experience you had will help this be true for you too! •• Also my advice is… instead of waiting for HER to make a jill off video, start by making your own. Grab your phone and film her going to town on her clit. Maybe she’ll grow comfortable gifting you a video one day. Until then you can have a mini library of sexy films. [I like to use a free app called Photo Vault to store my sex pics and videos under password protection.]
Thanks for the idea, PM. I'll keep that in mind next time opportunity arises. 😉
Maxloving, that was HOT for sure! Thanks for sharing. I loved how you were able to enjoy her enjoying herself. Very sexy and satisfying. Look forward to hearing about the video!
@MaxLoving, I know you didn’t ask anyone to feel sorry for you, and you’ve written this in a way that seems to remove your own emotions. But I can’t help but feel very sorry in reading what you wrote about the effects of Parkinsons disease and the impact of DBS surgery. I didn’t even know what DBS was and had to google it. Your feelings in dealing with all of this weren’t mentioned, probably by intention, but that’s honestly the part I’m left thinking about after reading this. It’s unfathomable to me what it would be like to lose (or have made more difficult) the ‘gift’ of sex God gave married people. The orgasm is easy, fun, and plentiful… right? Until it's not, apparently. I can’t say I’ve spent much time pondering how this gift could so easily be taken away. And sure, life and intimacy is comprised of more than just an orgasm (or many of them), but what a loss if you want, yet can’t have them any longer!
I know someone who at the moment is preparing to have surgery done on his nose to help him breathe easier. The doctor apparently told him that he has to be very careful, because if he does the surgery incorrectly, this man will lose his sense of smell. Just that easy, and the blessing of being able to smell and taste pleasant things may be permanently damaged or even gone forever! Unfortunately, it appears similar with other ‘equipment’ in these fallen bodies we’ve been placed in that seem prone to corruption and disease.
And what a challenge to have natural desire, with equipment that does not cooperate. I don’t know how you emotionally deal with all this, but you’ve definitely given me some things to think about.
Well, Ittib, It is sort of like this,
1. I wrote my experience down in order to share, especially since I recall having indicated that it was a fantasy of mine, in a comment somewhere. I wanted to share my "success" so others could rejoice with me. So my focus wasn't on the PD and DBS, I only mentioned those in passing so people would understand why I didn't orgasm and why we ended up masturbating instead of having sex.
2. I guess, to a large extent, I've come to terms with my near inability to reach orgasm. I can often reach it when I masturbate by myself, but takes some "tricks" I've learned, positions that work frequently, a toy that helps, ect, I'm just happy that now I generally do feel good feelings and my hope is I will eventually become more orgasmic, though I realize that isn't likely. So I enjoy what I can experience, and I enjoy the time with my wife (usually about once a week, on her day off, when she isn't as tired) But yeah, that first year before I figured out I needed more dopamine in my system to feel anything, was depressing. Even now, my orgasms don't feel as good as they used to.
3. For others who are unfamiliar with PD and DBS, I should explain. Parkinson's Disease is caused by the loss of dopamine-producing neurons in the brain. Aside from their role in the reward system, they are also responsible for movement. The loss of neurons as well as receptors in the brain cause the hallmark traits of tremors, bradykenesia (slowness of movement), as well as a myriad of other problems, all depending on where the dopamine decides to go and not go. Though there are some common symptoms, ever individual has a different mix of symptoms. Some PD patients, for instance, never develop tremors, but my have gait problems, or non-motor symptoms like sleep issues, or depression, of loss of smell. (I've not had any of those three problems thus far.) Also, around 60-70% of people with PD, if they live long enough, will come down with dementia.
DBS, which is short for "Deep Brain Stimulation" is done through surgery where two lead are placed through holes drilled on your skull, and inserted so that the exposed part of the leads are exactly positioned in the brain so that when electricity is sent through them, via a battery pac, sort of like a pace maker, it blocks the errant signals the brain sends out that cause tremors as well as other motor related symptoms,
For me, the results were a real blessing, overall. No more 4 times a day cycling through meds, going from off-times to dyskenesia (involuntary movements caused by the meds) with about one hour of the four-times-as-day cycle when I felt "normal." Now I essentially feel "normal" most of the time. It is one of the reasons I've been able to do more writing over the past year.
So, yes, while I lament that I can't have orgasms with my wife so easily anymore, I am very thankful that I get some quality time with my wife in other ways, and like I say, we still have "sex", and enjoy it, though it probably won't be the same as everyone else's, and often will not have an orgasm accompany the fun. That said, it is fun, and I get to give her an O which I completely enjoy, as does she. And she will usually suck on my dick until I either cum, which happens on occasion with some hand stimulation, And I really enjoy that part!
At any rate, I guess I've already come to terms with it and am content, which is where I think we all need to be. Because I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me. I'm simply submitting to His will, whatever that happens to be.
If I had to make the decision to do the DBS surgery again, knowing what I know now, I'd still chose to have it done. Despite my loss of having regular orgasms with my wife. It's just one of those things. And, when I do have an orgasms, like i did two weeks ago, they make for some very special times.
Thanks, for your concern and heartfelt words. I appreciate them.
Great story. Been there, done that. I love to masturbate.
Thanks for the story. It is wonderful to hear how a woman is comfortable enough to stimulate herself to orgasm in front of her husband. It is extremely beautiful to behold in person. My wife is becoming more comfortable with it and I love it.
MaxLoving, You really are making the best of things given the circumstances.
I wish you and your wife many many special intimate times together and that you both feel content after your lovemaking sessions.
I really liked the picture accompanying your story – very apt!
I wonder if the husbands here enjoy catching their wife pleasing herself more or asking her to do it for him to watch or if both are equally enjoyable.
Guys aren't the only ones that love to watch! I love watching my husband Ben masturbate. It is so hot, especially if he doesn't know I am watching. Of course we masturbate together also, which is also hot. Naturally Ben really enjoys watching me masturbate as well. Great story! Thanks for sharing and stay horny!