Baby Give Me One Last Dance

Our anniversary was beautiful, and thank God my husband was well enough to celebrate it. In recent times, sometimes he was “better,” while other times he was worse.

However, after our anniversary his strength was deteriorating for good. For a while, he was still able to get around and walk short distances and sit up, but he couldn’t stand for long periods, and our son would help my husband to bathe (I’d be the one to wash his privates).

One evening, I came home after visiting my mother and aunt. I saw that our son just got done helping his father bathe, and I was surprised that they didn’t tell me, so I could be there. I helped our son hold Paul up as we went to our bedroom, then he left.

I helped Paul lay down, and surprisingly, he asked me not to dress him. He took my hand and said,”Baby, give me one last dance.”

“You got it, hot man!” I allowed him to watch as I changed into his favorite lingerie set on me. He loved me wearing white lingerie with silver snowflakes on it, and I turned on just the right song. It was called “Dance While The Music Still Goes On” by ABBA. I’d listened to that song ever since I was 13, and now was the perfect time to dance to it, making the most of the time Paul had left.

I danced and had so much fun dancing. He smiled as he eagerly watched my strip off my lingerie, dancing for him naked.  “Bravo, my Sweet ‘n’ Sexy Swede!” He said.  “Thank you, my Ardent American,” I replied.

Then, Paul expressed that he wanted to cuddle with me. I didn’t hesitate to get in bed with him and cuddle in his arms, naked. We didn’t need to have sex, neither of us needed to have an orgasm. We just wanted to be intimate in this way, naked skin to skin contact. In our entire marriage, we were only ever intimate like that after sex, but this was different. Paul stroked me, stroked my skin, my breasts, my hair and he caressed my face and kissed me before we fell asleep in each other’s arms.

After that beautiful night, he got worse, so he felt it was in his best interest, and ours, to go to the hospice. I was initially reluctant, as I felt it was my duty to take care of my husband, but he also said it was my duty as his wife to obey him. He had a point, so he went into the hospice, and it was a beautiful room, and he was being well taken care of. It was good to know he was happy there. But our family did not leave his side. We spent all time I could with him, sharing the joyful times we had.

When it became apparent that he wasn’t going to make it much longer our whole family gathered at his side. Paul took a moment to kiss us all goodbye. He saved me for last.

“My dear sweet Clara. Thank you for being the most wonderful wife. I don’t want any of you to be sad, because I’m going to be with the Lord, now.” Paul was saying while he held me. He was right. And we will all be together again, and best of all we will be with Jesus in Heaven!

“Give J a hug for me when you see her.” I told him (“J” is our deceased daughter).

“Absolutely! That goes without saying!” He said. He was even able to be humorous one last time – while hugging me, he grabbed my butt when no one was looking! He made me laugh that brief moment, I cannot forget that! After we all said our goodbyes and told each other how much we loved one another, he slipped into a coma. I clasped his hand the entire time.

On the evening of February 2nd, Paul, my sweet husband, passed away peacefully at age 58 with all of us surrounding him. He went to be with the Lord, and although there is great sadness about his passing, there is also a sense of relief that his suffering is finally over and we have to remind ourselves that Paul is in a better place.

I miss him so much! This was the man I knew since I was 14! For almost 43 years I knew and loved him and we were married for 39 years. But I still have a lot left to live for. I still have my grandbaby girl to raise, and I have other family members I need to be here for too, my remaining children and grandchildren being a few, so I’ll gladly remain on this earth until God takes me home to Heaven. We must be strong, and always trust God that He knows what’s best for us.

Click on a heart to thank the author of this story!

Average rating / 5. Vote count:

No votes so far! Be the first to rate this post.

We are sorry that this post was not one of your favorites!

Help us understand why.

17 replies
  1. WeldersWife says:

    Beautiful story Mrs. Clara. One can only hope to be as happy as you were with your husband for all those years! Praying for peace for you and your family! God bless y’all!

  2. Clara Olivia Thornton says:

    ArtRutherford Our middle child died in her mid-20s, before she reached her 25th birthday. But it doesn't matter if ur child dies as a grown up or in the womb, it's still painful right? I'm so sorry for your loss. God bless

  3. HeSaid-SheSaid says:

    Very beautiful! Thank you for sharing. To be surrounded by family before one leaves this earth is precious. Ironically I met with a friend tonight whom I've not seen for awhile. He too may not have long on this earth. Sadly, his family has distanced themselves. We may have to be his family in their stead in his hour of need.

  4. Clara Olivia Thornton says:

    Great Marriage Thank you so much! That was so beautiful! When we get to Heaven our relationships will be different, but I think they will be better 🙂 God bless

  5. Clara Olivia Thornton says:

    HeSaid-SheSaid Yes, well the most important thing is that the person is saved, because then they will go to Heaven. That's most vital for them to believe on Christ, and what He did for us. God bless you and your friend

  6. Harper Shelby Thornton says:

    I'd also like to say something on here if I may. Paul was a wonderful man, not just Clara's husband, but he was the cousin of my husband. So frankly, my husband and I wouldn't have met it weren't for their romance! I loved seeing them together, because they always looked so happy. They were indeed a beautiful couple. We all miss him very much.

  7. hornyGG says:

    Oh Clara darlin! Ben and I are so very sorry for your loss. We are praying for you. May God bless you and keep you and your family. Beautiful story! Thank you.

  8. Lovinghusband says:

    Hi Clara,

    As you know – we all were initially drawn to this website over the exciting issue of married sex. We receive much joy as we read of the sexual enthusiasm in other's lives. Then, over time, we become more and more aware of the people who write stories and make comments. Then, a wonderful Christian dynamic happens – we find ourselves really caring for the people who write in. We learn of not only many of the heights, but some of the difficulties we are facing too.

    I don't know you at all – except through your writing. I want you to know that your loss is felt by many of us who care about you and your situation. I'm glad your trust is in the God of all comfort. He has us walk in the valleys at times – making us need to look to Him even more. I know you have already experienced much comfort from God and I rejoice in that.

    I also want you to know that we realize you will face new holidays and birthdays for the first time in a long time without your dear husband here. There will be fresh moments of needing God's comfort. So, I mourn with you from afar – in your loss. This story is a great testimony that you are dwelling on so much of the great reservoir of memories at your disposal. That is also a gift from God. Clara, you have much to teach many of us now. Please realize that. You love sex just like we all do. Yet, you also know better than the rest of us now that your relationship with your dear husband was a lot more than your sex life. You already knew it – but you know it even more profoundly now.

    Anyway, I felt compelled to tell you that every time I see your name here – my heart goes out to you as your brother in Christ. Thank you for being so open with us here Clara. Much love and comfort in Christ, LH.

  9. Clara Olivia Thornton says:

    Lovinghusband thank you for your kind words. I'm doing a little better than what I was but it's still hard sometimes. I'm just glad he was able to squeeze in one more humorous act before he died. I'll never forget that. He was amazing, and I know I'll see him, and we'll all be together someday! God bless you too <3

Leave a Reply

Want to join the discussion?
Feel free to contribute!

Leave a Reply