Life Update – Lost and Found
[Editor’s Note: This story contains references to sexual encounters before marriage, though not in detail and not in a positive sense. If this offends you or causes you to stumble, please don’t read it.]
Hey all! It’s been around six months since I wrote last and A LOT has changed!!!
If you have read my past posts, you’ll know I was having a lot of trouble trusting God. I started dating and was finding it hard to stay pure for my future husband. Unfortunately, I was with a not-so-great guy at the time who took advantage of my doubt. We ended up having sex, and I’ve regretted it ever since. I finally ended things because I hated how he treated me and verbally abused me.
After him, I had a rough time! I started sleeping with whoever, whenever. I was so lost. I just really didn’t care about myself anymore. I had gone from saving myself for marriage to four notches in my belt that I wish I could erase. My heart was aching to find the right man, but I had no clue where to discover him.
Then I had a date with someone I met through an online dating app. We met and had dinner. I liked this guy and how he made me feel about myself, the way he talked to me. I wasn’t just a score for him. I was a person. Not just some girl but someone that mattered. He made me feel worthy of love again.
Not-so-long story short, we were married three months later. It was a beautiful ceremony at my home church, and life has been fantastic for these last three months. I am as happy as can be. I feel God working in my life, sending me Nate, rescuing me from my dangerous situation. He reminded me that I am worth so much more!
I have someone now who loves me more than I ever knew a man could love me. He would do anything for me and I for him. He is my partner, my best friend, the love of my life! I hate to think of where I would be without him. I thank God for him every day and can’t wait to grow old together!
Thank you for sharing such personal and deeply hurtful things that you have been through. I am beyond thrilled for you that Nate came into your life. Everyone has made and continues to make mistakes they wish that they could undo. I, for one, celebrate your happiness and honesty to this community. MH is a very supportive community and we learn from and share our most intimate experiences here without judgement. I believe that is the utmost special part of this community.
I have said this before, but it is worth repeating, when you have the right partner, life is so wonderful and there is not anything you cannot overcome. I have been with my beloved hubby for 36 years and I can say that unequivocally regarding having the best partner for myself.
Much happiness to you both and look towards the future and I know you both will "write"a glorious life together.
Congratulations! God bless you both, dear!
Good for you to find Nate. God will bless your marriage. We are happy for you.