Reggie felt almost dead inside. Life just dragged by from day to day, and he didn’t feel much of a purpose or have hope for the future. As a Christian, it seemed to him like a lack of faith, but he just couldn’t shake the feelings that plagued him. He didn’t think he was clinically depressed, but he knew life could be better. Reggie still went to work and took care of himself, but he wished he had someone special with whom to share his life.
Now in his mid-thirties, Reggie had yet to find a relationship that developed past casual dating, much less toward marriage. He tried not to think sexually of the ladies he knew, and he was pretty good at distracting himself. Now it had been so long since he’d felt something for a woman besides compassion or empathy; his sex drive was close to nil. While he thought that might be a good thing for someone without a wife, as it waned, so had his inner light and appetite for life. So eventually, he sought out a Christian counselor.
Among other things, the counselor always read a passage from the Bible that she felt led to share with him. This morning, his counselor had him turn to Colossians 3:12-17, but for some reason, her eyes lit instead on chapter 1:12-18. So she followed the Spirit’s leading. She read: “Giving thanks to the Father who has qualified us to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in the light. He has delivered us from the power of darkness and conveyed us into the kingdom of the Son of His love, in whom we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins. He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are on earth, visible, and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers. All things are created through Him and for Him. And He is before all things, and in Him all things consist. And He is the head of the body, the church, who is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, that in all things He may have the preeminence.”
When Reggie her speak the words “firstborn from the dead,” he felt as if God had touched his abdominal region, stirring up an electrical surge deep in his gut that radiated through his entire body. It communicated a sense of blessing on the urges he had turned off for fear of sinning. Reggie recognized anew that God had created male and female and intended relationship between the two. While he didn’t know if he could take it as a promise he’d find someone, he thought there might be a legitimate foretaste of what sex in marriage might feel like. Hope was reborn within him.
From that point in his day, Reggie rushed to finish all his errands and eat lunch so that he could finally release all the energy set in motion. On his way, he frequently played back in his mind the phrase “the firstborn from the dead.” The arousal and anticipation he finally felt again seemed rather like a rebirth of his own—not to be compared to eternal salvation, to be sure, but a salvation from the listlessness that had settled into him.
Finally, he made it home and made himself a sandwich before allowing himself to relieve the tension he’d savored all day. Removing his shirt, he settled onto his couch and began to touch the little bumps around his nipples. The surge of energy built. Finally, when it reached the pinnacle of intensity, Reggie reached down and slowly got a sure grip with his hands between his legs. Steadily he increased the compression, then started an up-and-down hand motion that gradually picked up in tempo. With each stroke, bursts of ecstasy shot through him as the pressure oscillated back and forth. After a few minutes, a hot sensation of liquid pressure built. His body shook, then suddenly relaxed, and a searing sensation accompanied each exiting cumshot.
Reggie shouted, “Christ is risen! He is risen indeed,” giving praise for the return of a joy he hadn’t felt in so long. When it was all over, Reggie felt blessed to have the truth of Christ’s salvation revealed in such a manner. What a way to celebrate the resurrection Christ offers us—not just eternal, but daily. While Reggie knew that being intimate with his spouse someday would be superior, it showed him that God had provided this great experience and that artificial obstacles shouldn’t be put in its way.
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